Sitting here at the hospital this morning while Daniel gets topped off with some fresh platelets and is having a nap. He is premedicated with Benadryl before so is settled in for a little nap and I am having a moment in quiet thought.
Why is it so hard to ask for help and what you want? Maybe it isn't for everyone, but it is for me. So many have been wonderful to offer meals and help through the year and unfortunately I have had to decline most of it. Daniel has had so many food restrictions and being in isolation we have had to say no to almost every invitation offered for help. It has been hard to say no to people but harder yet ro say yes to people's generosity. Why is that? Now that we are finally through then eye of the storm I am starting to see the clearing on the other side. There is wreckage in the path and lots to be cleaned up but I feel it is time to get started.
As I made my first call to an organization that may be able to provide some help along the way with some fun for Daniel if he wants it maybe next summer in the way of a camp or retreat I found that as much as our family needs time to heal and needs help my way is finding ways to stay busy and help others. I don't know how I will apply my energy or where. there are so many places I learned are in need. Do I start my own organization. Help an existing one. I don't know YET. Daniel's needs still take the majority of my days, but I am starting with a platelet drive on on July 28th. I know that is an immediate need at the hospital I can ask those that want to help me can help with.
Baby Steps.
The next thing I ask is a cure for Cancer.
Why is it so hard to ask for help and what you want? Maybe it isn't for everyone, but it is for me. So many have been wonderful to offer meals and help through the year and unfortunately I have had to decline most of it. Daniel has had so many food restrictions and being in isolation we have had to say no to almost every invitation offered for help. It has been hard to say no to people but harder yet ro say yes to people's generosity. Why is that? Now that we are finally through then eye of the storm I am starting to see the clearing on the other side. There is wreckage in the path and lots to be cleaned up but I feel it is time to get started.
As I made my first call to an organization that may be able to provide some help along the way with some fun for Daniel if he wants it maybe next summer in the way of a camp or retreat I found that as much as our family needs time to heal and needs help my way is finding ways to stay busy and help others. I don't know how I will apply my energy or where. there are so many places I learned are in need. Do I start my own organization. Help an existing one. I don't know YET. Daniel's needs still take the majority of my days, but I am starting with a platelet drive on on July 28th. I know that is an immediate need at the hospital I can ask those that want to help me can help with.
Baby Steps.
The next thing I ask is a cure for Cancer.