Well these past several days have been fairly normal. Shhh! I don’t want to jinx anything, right? Actually Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday I got some time for ME. Little, old, me. And one of those words stands out more than others lately. Thursday, I was asked to take an extra ticket to go see the musical Motown with a group of 14 girlfriends. We carpooled and all sat together, kibbitzzed and sand and danced the night away. It was a great night of music and wonderful performances. Friday afternoon amazing friends Chandra and Janet picked me up for a nice (but too quick) lunch of catching up on kids and husbands and daily family life. It has been way too long and it was so lovely to see them always. Saturday night, I joined Rob and our work family and went up to the mountain (Casino) to a nice Steakhouse reastraunt to dine and celebrate Hannah’s year anniversary working with us at the store and just have us getting out for dinner for the first time. It was a good dinner, considering that is the restaurant I unfortunately found out about my terrible shellfish allergy the hard way (insert frowny face here), and getting to know Hannah, and her sister a little bit was great. I haven’t been into work this entire year. Hannah was truly a Godsend for us when I had my surgery last April (coming up a year this week) and then the rest of our year fell upon us. It was nice to catch up with everyone and see that it is okay to get out again for a little bit. Sunday I am lounging around writing this, and will do a bunch of nothing as Rob and Matthew take in a final day of skiing and Daniel is at Driver’s Ed class and Ronit and Amy assumed carpooling with the girls. I am free for the day. But a common theme ran through all time I found myself at most times preoccupied thinking about germs. Especially when out at the Theater and OMG in the casino after eating. I tried to stand still in one spot and no touch anything. I sat down at one point, but mostly just stood still, holding my breath. I mean that is normally what I do when Rob gambles, but still. I watched Rob playing and every time he would reach to touch his face for some reason I would make him put Purell on his hands. I know I have become a crazy person but, again I have done such a good job of staying germ free so far. But then again, I haven’t been out of the house. Now I go to a busy theater and a Casino of all places all in a few day period. That is really gambling.
But these few outings were also a little experiment you could say. A test for both Daniel and myself. I am planning to leave for Toronto at the end of next week for (just) a couple days with Matthew for my nieces Bat Mitzvah. Rob will be home with Daniel and I know Daniel is fine administering all his own medications, pills, injections, this and that….not so much eating and defintly not cleaning, but only with many, many texts and phone calls. So these times away from home were a good test of how this would go. Well lets just say it was a good experiment but it did not go very well. Yes my trip away will be fine and it will all go well but this test was a bust. I described it on Friday like that time you come home to the kids and expect that the babysitter has the house clean and the kids asleep and you can come home and just enjoy the rest of your night together…yea right, we all know how that story goes. So I have two weeks and a little work to do to get us both ready for Toronto. Besides, I hope he will A. G-d willing b home and not in the hospital with CMV back and B. off of more IV meds and down to possibly just one a day. I will keep my fingers crossed. Maybe I will have to spend these next few weeks practicing getting out a bit more and encouraging a little more independence???