For those of you that don't know, just before Daniel was diagnosed in June, I had just had a preventative double mastectomy. I had proudly made the decision to have this procedure because of both of my older sisters' breast cancer diagnosis. When I received my sister Rochelle's phone call about her diagnosis I never took a second thought or even cared about genetic testing. I just said to myself "I don't have time for cancer." Ha. How foolish was I. Not a moment later, look at what fell in our lap. So again I say, you get what you get and deal with it. I cut my recouperation short and packed my bags and moved into The Children's Hospital to take care of my child. After all, what I CHOSE to do was purely elective. Daniel never chose a thing. I found it more comfortable to sleep in the recliner chair at the hospital anyway, sitting up was far more comfortable to sleep and even breathe most of the time. I put my pain on the back burner and concentrated soley on Daniel. Over the weeks of which it has been many, I have graduated to the pulldown bed here, but to be honest I am never comfortable. Not for a minute really. The process of breast reconstruction has been fairly easy although not without complication. The last month I have had a leak in one of my expanders and had to go repeatedly back to the plastic surgeon for refills. I have to say I can not wait a minute longer to get these expanders out because I hate them. They hurt every second of the day and they are uncomfortable and I can't wait until I don't have to have them in me anymore and now I don't have to. Tomorrow I will leave for the day and the night and spend my first time away from Daniel. It scares me to leave but it is Daniel who told me to go and take care of myself. He said he will be fine, and I know he will. It will be good timing because I will spend a day at home and night in my bed and then come back to the hospital and the recliner to heal. I know the nurses will help take care of me too and then when Daniel is ready to come home in a week or two I will be really able to take care of him because I will be fully healed. This is not like the first major surgery I have been told and I won't have near as much pain this time. I am confidant in my surgeon and I know that Daniel is well taken care of. He is feeling good right now too so I am feeling a little better about leaving him for the day. Aunty Debbie will spend the day with him tomorrow while I am in surgery. Rob will be with me (it is outpatient by the way if I forgot to mention that). And when I get home I will go straight to bed. I expect by 1:00 at the latest. And I expect to be comfortable again (okay maybe not tomorrow, but very soon). I am actually excited to move on to this final phase in this part of my process and see sleeping on my side and belly in the near future. Oh how I have missed you. I will once again be able to stretch and take a deep breath and actually hug my family without hurting them with my rock hard boobs (sorry was that TMI). Tomorrow I reclaim a little normalcy in life and once again everyone of the girlfriends has been wonderful and accomodating trying to help where needed. I will take all the love and help you offer. As far as support...heehee remember, I don't need that anymore. All my bras are now available to you all.
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Mom
8/5/2014 02:48:44 pm
Good luck tomorrow, get your girls back and feel well. Love you
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Dad
8/6/2014 12:45:53 am
I am sure that Daniel will be okay I hope your procedure goes easy and you're back at your son's side as soon as possible i'm sure Daniels in good hands then he Debbie and I'm sure he will continue to set them up he seems to like auntie Debbie's food because she's a terrific cook.
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Rikki
8/6/2014 03:15:41 pm
You are a source of inspiration and strength!! Wishing you a speedy recovery!!!
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Anna
8/7/2014 09:19:52 am
As usual sending best wishes your way. Jeez I think your family has had MORE than it's share of the big C. Don't push yourself too hard, which I know you'll find difficult! Much love.
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