All things are going so well right now (peu peu). CMV is in a non-detectable and stable place for the second week in a row, Daniel is feeling good and with the exception of his weight he is doing great. He is starting to drive a bit everyday with his new permit and I think is getting excited about it. He is hopefully going to be wrapping up (homebound) school on time in a few weeks and I know he will be excited about that. This was obviously NOT how he wanted his freshman year to go. Whereas Matthew still doesn’t erally see the seriousness of his current grades for his college transcripts, Daniel already is very much invested in what his future looks like and this brings a tear to my eyes every time I hear it. Just knowing that he has this as an option and that his original path has barely skipped a beat is incredible.
I love how quickly that Daniel is picking up and moving on. I think I may be having a harder time than him. I am trying to give myself permission to do it but for all intents and purposes I find this hard to do. For Daniel it is daily business as usual. He just wakes up and does his thing. His thing entails waking up and playing with a bit of work thrown in for measure these days. He is not pushed to do much. I on the other hand am still tasked with the daily ins and outs of well…tasks. This is just parenting to me so I don’t make a big deal about it but going beyond this and doing more is still a bit more than I can handle yet. I guess it still takes more out of me than I have. Just the thought of it takes it out of me. Besides I am not even sure what else I would do. I certainly am not ready to go back to work although I am sure Rob I am sure is ready for me to be…on second thought you may want to ask him that. Still 24/7 with Daniel wouldn’t allow this, but ready to start doing a little something. Maybe I will come up with a summer project to attack.
I love how quickly that Daniel is picking up and moving on. I think I may be having a harder time than him. I am trying to give myself permission to do it but for all intents and purposes I find this hard to do. For Daniel it is daily business as usual. He just wakes up and does his thing. His thing entails waking up and playing with a bit of work thrown in for measure these days. He is not pushed to do much. I on the other hand am still tasked with the daily ins and outs of well…tasks. This is just parenting to me so I don’t make a big deal about it but going beyond this and doing more is still a bit more than I can handle yet. I guess it still takes more out of me than I have. Just the thought of it takes it out of me. Besides I am not even sure what else I would do. I certainly am not ready to go back to work although I am sure Rob I am sure is ready for me to be…on second thought you may want to ask him that. Still 24/7 with Daniel wouldn’t allow this, but ready to start doing a little something. Maybe I will come up with a summer project to attack.