Tomorrow is a crazy exciting day. Tomorrow Daniel goes back to a classroom. Albeit a driver’s ed classroom I feel like I am sending him to his first day of kindergarten. I have packed him his lunch and all his medical stuff and gone through it with him a hundred times and he has rolled his eyes a hundred and two. I am terrified to send him. It is way across town and I plan to stay close by. He has been throwing up a lot lately and it is starting at such an early time it is way off of his schedule. I am terrified and we are sending him against doctor’s recommendations with his numbers being so down. We have to trust that other parents will use their better judgement and not send sick kids and that Daniel will call and leave immediately if he senses trpuble. I do trust Daniel completely he is overly cautious. A perfect example of this is yesterday afternoon we went to a movie. Purposely going during the week in the afternoon so that it would not be crowded. We went to see The Woman In Gold. When we walked in there were about twenty 80ish year old people in the theater, a few (maybe one or two) seemed to be coughing and clearing their throats. Daniel looked at me and said “I want to leave. I am not staying in here with all these people, there are way too many sick people and germs.” I respect him advocating for himself. He has done such a good job so far taking care of himself. I feel every little thing we do is taking risks and relaxing is not an option. We did find another movie to hop into that only had two other people in. And after we bleached down the seats and sat away from them we enjoyed the show, but getting out does not com without it’s worries. So you can imagine what a nervous wreck I will be from 8-4:30 tomorrow. I will try to sleep tonight between the worry and the excitement for Daniel. Knowing that the risk is worth the reward getting him one step closer to a driver’s license and a normal adulthood. Driving. AAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!! More worries . Breathe mamma.
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Terri Otto
4/14/2015 12:51:24 pm
Hi Nancy. Over the break, I had lunch with Genie Ritthaler and were talking about Daniel. She mentioned this blog, so I decided to visit. Wow, you are incredibly diligent in your posts. I read and reread so many of your entries. No one can really know what it is like for you, but as a mom, I have to say that this would be - well, there is no one word, not a 1,000 words, to describe the emotional rollercoaster. I have learned over the years that family members of those stricken with cancer do their homework and dig for as much information as they can.
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